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im tired
of working.
i guess
im getting
blase.
or despaired.
or out of energy.
or whatever.
i don't know.
i just hope
its potential
is not gonna
omnibulate
me.
that'll be
sucking up
all that's left
of me.

bad?

some people
smell like
disease.

pain

i was so eager
busy
looking for pain
that it went
and came
when i wasn't
ready
i wasn't
prepared.
so it hurts.
it grows.
i suffer
my rose.

open

you won't like this
you will maybe enjoy it
at times
but to like
would be
a sin to you.
in the end
however
that's the only
moments
you'll ever
feel
alive.
like a rebirth
true,
pain.
true.

pow

with these humans
i can't help
but to grow
cold
a killer
a coward
the basis
of humans
cowardice
or death
either yours
or theirs
all the rage
that dwells
no wonder
colombine
got shot
the elephant
wasn't white.

z'(h)[au/o]t(r)es

une solitude
un manque
un vide
une idee
une envie
un desir
un besoin
un interet
un espoir
un mensonge
une solitude
une emotion
une creation
un reve
une aspiration
une solitude
une epopee
une aventure
une passion
une jouissance
un orgasme
une chaleur
une solitude
un spasme
un partage
un avenir
un devoir
un futur
une mort
une solitude
une mort
une solitude

search

this universe has no secrets
it has nothing to hide.
it can't be learned.
only understood.
the only thing
in this universe
that hides,
are humans.
and they,
also,
are the only ones
to see things
as being hidden.
fear
paranoia
were our mothers
us
their brood
instinct
their offspring

ici

c'est mon auto.

trust

why do you people
need so much belief?
are you this frail?
this scared?
are you
so willing
to spend
your mind
your potential
into such uncertainty
as to believe
this much?
are you this
blind
this courage lacking?
...

aflame

when i feel these flames
that pushes me
burn my heart
that i feel
my hands
are worth more
than their fingers
they shape
color
create
and paint
to satisfy me
deeply
i feel something
growing out
like a tree
a star
a fire
when my heart
is aflame

discord

you know when it draws energy from your very soul.
your desires.
the eternal conflict
between your mind and your heart.
the discord in oneself.

ideal

is this my ideal?
my idea?
i guess not
i think
its simpler
do i need to go back there?
i guess so
its simpler
its where i can re-be
me
...
what do i want?
is it like i thought?
i built it too high on mobile grounds?
do i guess?
its simpler
and am I running late?
its simpler
to know what i want
...
i guess...

flaw

do i feel like i should stop?
yeah, i don't want this.
to hell with it
but i know...
i just know i shouldn't
i should keep it near me
feel me.
and use it.
understand
comprehend
what makes me so vulnerable at this precise time?
what makes me want to flee so far away?
what makes me scared so much?
why do i need to be so "in control"?
is it something i can't control?
without changing me wholly?
am i this far away already?

i think so.
and, i don't know what to think of this.
this feeling...
this insecurity
it makes me... crazy.
because of the rose?
i so don't want to get hurt i want to control my environment?
i guess that's where my "egoism" comes from.
hmmm...
i mean, if its because of this, then again,
everything from the rose 'till now is...
to be remade?
is flawed?
...
...
...

ivory

smells human.
doubting forevermore.
no curse,
no gift.
human.
cold maybe.
closer to truth...
maybe.
open.
vulnerable.
the castle is enough?
does the rose
entice such?
the soul weeps.
what makes them think
i want to be alone?
smells human.
does the rose
command such?
is fear,
them thorns,
major?
i can feel it
again.
who am i fooling?
hahaha.
do i feel this secure?
have I no quarter?
is my ivory tower so high?
hahaha.

unbind

its as if 
the skies froze 
the last plaintiff 
died by the rose 
when it'll rain 
drops of crimson 
writhed all in pain
and ethereal passion
their lives will 
be made clear 
they'll ask to fill 
their mind with fear 
when finally
the gold'll shine
and they'll be 
at all unbind

patience

patience is a virtue
i will not burden
dissolved
i am no wiseman
i am no wizard
i am...
me talking about restraints
but yet have some
i REFUSE this condition
i need to feel it
to make it me
i am just another one
one of many
where i am free
where i am me
i am free
i am me