sacrifice

am I
approaching
this the
wrong way?
or
is it just
unobvious
that his
way
requires lengths
and
loneship
for extended
periods of
time?
I fail to
stop
the doubts.
I fail to
convince
myself that
this way is
simply
"purer"
not only in its
intent,
but also in its
consequences.
and I now
fear
that this supposed
"purer" way
might not
be the one
I really require.
or want.
for now.
I feel that
if I proceed
that i'll feel...
sacrificed.