balance

which is
truer?
where does
"chaos"
comes from?
all want
balance.
but what
unbalances
or
unbalanced?

abandon

trust.
one cannot
experience
life
without it.
fear
blocks all.
only trust
whether
blind
or awake
can reveal
our
universe
as it is.
all desires
sprouts
from this
abandon.
all needs
fulfilled
trust.
whether built
artificially,
speeding
the process
of time,
erasing
inhibitions
or through
the limiting
time process,
you MUST
eliminate
fear,
doubt,
hesitation,
and free
yourself
to the
possibilities
that reality
gives you.
trust,
or suffer.

blood

what
drives me
toward this?
is it really
subconscious
or are we
really
"prisonners"
of that
which is called
destiny
(occult
or not)?
its goal
is evident.
do i want it?
is its
pain
wished so?
does my
Rose
claim its
blood?

learn

i feel like
i shouldn't
be here.
like,
my time
would be better
spent
elsewhere.
for
a great
hurting.
one
that will
understand
me more
than
what i've
learned
before.

thyself

is that desire
sprouting
from instincts only?
why would
the interest
be so bold
so daring?
why would one
be hiding such
from
others?
shouldn't the reach
towards others
be evident,
be true?
why would one
be hiding such
from even
oneself?
fear of
retribution?
or being
true?
or lack of
self-understanding,
self knowledge?
why are they
so hypocrites
both to
others
as to
themselves?
...
reach for
others
when you'll know
and understand
thyself.

freedom

the perfect shape
unfolds only
under
the toughest
minds,
the hardest
thorns,
the bloodiest
scars.
...
why is it
so hard,
so difficult
to master
a world
without walls?

tool

who am i
to judge
or
to strike down?
i am but
a tool
that gets
pushed around.

you to me

shed all
to me
free yourself
for all
to see
...
open your being

1

i am becoming
numb.
and even if
i don't
enjoy it,
i don't
seem to
mind
that much
anymore.
am i already
fossilizing?
that,
even though
my sincerest
efforts,
i failed
in this task?
i am becoming
numb.
like all others,
comfortably.
numb.
becoming.
numb.
becoming.
number.

free

i think
i might
have taken some
the wrong way.
blew them out
before they
should've.
or did i?
is not
the body
the easiest
to share,
to forgo?
to satisfy
its needs
then jump ahead
and share
deepness,
like
the mind?
wouldn't
ditching
the body
as fast as possible,
without
compromising it,
be the most
logical
and
easiest
approach to
build,
to their full
potential,
the relationships
that can be called
intimate?
and is
fear
behind the
impossibility
of making this
generally
accepted?
a complete
hinderance
to creating
new
and
successful
relationships altogether?
do we
fear
others...
fear
so largely
as to oppose
such logic
at such heights?
ditch the body,
the eyes,
the nose,
the ears,
the skin,
and before all,
be free.